For days I have found myself in a funk, and for days I have had the feeling that I needed to clean my bedroom. What a mix!! I’ve sat here and argued with myself that tackling my bedroom while in a mood was not going to be a good thing.
But alas, I finally gave in and headed in to tackle the dreaded job of sorting, rearranging and cleaning my room. And wanna know something? Surprisingly my mental state is in a far better place than it was when I started.
How can that be when I was dreading it so much? Well, I’m gonna tell ya!
I built the wall that made my bedroom, and my bed myself. I put a lot of time and energy into making my room into my own personal space after not having one for almost 2 years. I was so proud of myself and what I had been able to accomplish on my own. Being in there, spending the time in there cleaning it reminded me of just how much I have to be proud of myself for.
I have learned how to replace windows, doors, tear out walls completely, build and install shelves. I completely gutted our bathroom and replaced the complete floor (joists and all) in a record amount of time. There are things that while they may not be perfect, they are surely way better than they were when we moved into our home and it’s all because I moved past my fear and timidness and tackled those projects myself.
Every single time I would take one of those projects on, I’d ask God for His guidance and for Him to give me the gumption, the strength and the knowledge to get it done. And seeing how some of these projects have kicked my behind, knowing the medical issues I deal with daily; it is clear that it was by His grace that I was able to complete each one as I did.
I think sometimes we forget all that we are capable of being, of what we are capable of doing and all that we have already successfully done and that is when we get into those “funks” that lead us nowhere good in our minds. Each of us need to remember our strengths, and to remember that the strength we had yesterday is the strength we’ll have tomorrow if we only remain steadfast in Him. For we know He is still the same today as He was yesterday, and He’ll still be the same tomorrow. So, if we are trusting in Him and relying on Him as we should each day, then why would we vary day to day?
“Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.” Psalm 62.8
I do believe that when we get those feelings that we should be doing or need to do something, even the things that we may not really want to do, we need to listen to them. I feel that He uses those situations to remind us of things, to show us something or even to offer us clarity on a subject we’ve been struggling with.
Had I not given in (even though it was begrudgingly) I wouldn’t have taken the time to reflect upon my strengths, how far I’ve come, or all that I have to be grateful and thankful for. Sometimes our blessings get shadowed by the day-to-day hustle and bustle and He has to make us take the time to slow down, or to focus on what He knows will bring us back into focus so that we see them more clearly.
There is just sometimes you can’t help but sit, reflect and say, “I know that was you Jesus, and I am so thankful that You love me, that You care enough about me and that You care enough about how I see myself that You still take the time to direct my thoughts, my actions and my day so that I can find the answers, even the ones that I may not know I seek. Thank You Jesus!”
Billie is a 40-something stay-at-home momma of five beautiful children and Grammy to three grandchildren. When not wrangling the littles, she babysits for her two adult children. You will find her gardening, canning, baking, and making the most delicious meals for her family. Billie is a multitasker juggling a team of miniature tyrants, a cat, a snake, two dogs, two rats, and nine chickens. In her spare time, she enjoys reading and studying her bible. Her passion is sharing the gospel through her writing! So, whether she’s feeding your body with delicious meals or feeding your soul through her writing, join Billie as she takes you on a journey providing you with “Food for Thought.”
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